really

I truly love the way that Adam always encourages me. I was thinking of the forlorn song I wrote last night, and when I went to sing it aloud, I couldn't. I heard Adam's voice telling me that that's not what God would have for me and not to wallow. I don't think he'd use those words, though. It would come out all cool and poignant. That's the other thing about Adam. He has his own way of saying things, and the meaning is slightly different than what one might initially suspect. It's a layers- thing.

I am way grateful for this friend, because I always learn so much, without him even realizing it. I learn about trust, friendship, fidelity, growth, and joy. I can only hope that, someday to someone, I'll be a voice of encouragement in his/her head.

Writing

I have a couple of ideas for this blog, but right now, I need to get ready for work.
But the ideas are percolating.

Happy Birthday

I'm sorry
I cannot be there for you
My heart is breaking me in half
But I can't beg to be your friend

I've always wanted to know you more
Yet we never seemed to be a fit
I keep replaying the songs inside my head
sigh sigh sigh don't cry cry cry

Concerts

I love concerts. Really, truly, madly, & absolutely love concerts.

I recently went to a concert even for Project Hangout. One of my favorites, Trevor Davis, was playing. Tyrone Wells closed the evening, and I must say, he's one of my new favorites.

Here are a few pics from the evening.

Specific abilities, Kingdom dreams

" 'Why spend money
on what is not bread,
and your labor
on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me,
and eat what is good,
and your soul will delight
in the richest of fare.' "
(Isaiah 55:2)

Life is more than living for the paycheck. Financial stability is nice, but it never truly satisfies the soul. It just allows one to pursue things to fill one's life, but when we try to find fulfilment in physical pleasures, we miss out on God's best.

We should be giving our all to the Lord, and seeing what He would have for our lives. How am I serving God in what I'm doing?

Can we be so bold to think that God created us with specific abilities that are unique, and because of which we are uniquely called? I hope so.

I'm just not sure what that is right now. However, I do believe that as I take these steps in life, the Lord will lead and direct me .

Update on Update

I've totally neglected this blog, and I know it's because I've used it more as a personal journal than anything else. And, let's face it, I'll never be as forthcoming online as I would in a journal that I'd handwrite. There are just too many ways to misinterpret things, and really, not all thoughts need to be explored by others.

However, I do like having something "out there" as a reminder of sorts. That being stated, I have an update:

I AM OFFICIALLY A COLLEGE STUDENT AGAIN!

Yay! After 8 or so years, I've enrolled and am taking a class at Chaffey College. I know, it's only one class, but I had to work classes in with my day job. I'm excited, because it's a critical thinking course, and I've been needing to sharpen the mind up a bit. The professor seems pretty liberal, and I know that he has had a negative experience with Christianity, so I am praying that I do well in the class itself and represent Christ in my good work habits, in my faithfulness in class, and as opportunity is presented, that I communicate the Truth in love and humility.

"With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." John 19:26

WORD!